Two Years

Wow. It's so crazy sometimes how everything just feels so right. Life is going well. Everything seems to be going exactly the way it should. But then I am reminded that he leaves next Wednesday. Everyone says, "Oh, it'll go by so fast", or "You are so strong, you can do it". But I'm just taking this one day at a time. I'm just going to live my life the way I want to and the way I know I should. No strings attached. Sure I'll miss him. More than anyone will ever even know or be able to comprehend and understand. But I will be just fine. I just know it. As we have both decided, I am going to live my life. Just like I should. I'm not waiting. We'll just see what happens when he gets back. Hopefully what we both would like to happen. But neither one of us wants to be let down if that isn't what is meant to happen. This really is God's plan and if we aren't meant to be together, forever, then what really is meant to happen will be the best thing for each of us. He is my very best friend and has been there for me so many times. And I will miss having him there. More than anything. 

There are so many memories I have of him, and each one brings a smile to my face. He was brought into my life for so many reasons, and although I may not know every one of them right now, I know that I am grateful that he did come into my life. He is such a great example to me and I have always looked up to him. He treats me with the utmost respect. He always has. He is one of the most kind and caring individuals I have ever met. He will be one of the  BEST missionaries ever! I am so excited to be able to write to him and see all the growth and everything that will happen to him. It will be the hardest, best, most exciting two years of his life, and mine. I am so proud of him. For the choice he made so long ago to serve a mission, and for his willingness now. He is so excited, and so am I. It will be a great experience.

Life. Is. Good.

Don't you ever have those days that remind you about happiness?

They are purely fantastic and I love them. 
There is something liberating and awesome about all those little things that just make you smile.
All the hugs. Those. Are what make life. Sometimes.  I love being able to look back on the day and think of atleast 5 or more things that just made you smile a little that day. My 5 for the day.
1. Isaac..
2. Helping people
3. Knowing that there is only two more days of school this week
4. Knowing senior project class is almost over
5. Knowing I got a B on my senior paper :) 

Sometimes its all the little things that make life great. Living and reliving all of those little moments that made you smile. Sometimes. You need to make a list and think hard about what makes you smile. But. It's worth it if you get a smile out of it.

Today in choir, somebody said something mean to another kid, and I (kindof sarcastically) said that he needed to now say 5 nice things. And that for everytime he said something mean he had to say 5 nice things. He tried. It was funny. But it got me thinking, if for everytime somebody said something mean or negative they had to say 5 positive or nice things to people. How different would the world be. How. kind would the world be. I think it would make a huge difference.


Music is awesome. It can be enjoyed in a happy mood or help you in a sad mood. I have a ton of favorite songs right now. Some that just. Rock. 


This one  I used to hate. I didn't enjoy it, at all. But recently I listened to it and I really enjoy it now.

This  seems to describe a lot recently.


This makes me smile :) A lot.


This is awesome.


This is going to be my life. Hopefully.


And of course. My all time favorite song....

Life is full of surprises. Sometimes good, sometimes disappointing, sometimes fantastic.
It really is beautiful though.. :)
 

Optimism

Sometimes the hardest thing, but always the most worthwhile. I sometimes have a really hard time with this, but when I am happy, I realize that it makes life a lot more fun. I always have to focus on all the great things going on in my life, otherwise I see all those things that are continually going wrong.


School, work, and life sometimes just feel so overwhelming. Right now, thats how it feels. But, that's okay, because it'll get better someday. someday.It is always someday. Unless we realize right now everything that is going well. All it takes is a little moment of thought. Make a list. Think about it. If you had to make a list of all the things going wrong, and all the things going right. I think you would find that everything going right outweighs everything going wrong. Whether or not the list is bigger or smaller, those things are probably more important to you and mean more in the long run. 

Things going wrong will always pass, and will be replaced with new things. Unless we take the time now to embrace all those amazing things that happen to us everyday, we won't ever be truly happy. I chose happiness. What do you choose?

This quote is a great one and always makes me feel a little bit more powerful when I am weighed down by everything going on.
 
"No one can make you feel inferior without your consent."
-Eleanor Roosevelt.

Change

It's crazy how fast life changes. It is like a continual thing, and I find it hard to keep up sometimes. One of the biggest changes I've been thinking about recently is college, and growing up. I seem to be growing up right before my eyes. Sometimes I'll say something profound and I'll think to myself, "WOW! When did I grow up...?" It is insanity some days.

This week flew right on past me. Today in government I was informed that it was Thursday instead of Tuesday like I'd been thinking all day long. It seems like there isn't enough time in the day to do everything that I would like to find time for. Although I always somehow manage to finish everything on time and be everywhere I need to be. It's a miracle sometimes.. 

One of the other big thoughts has been people. I love people watching and just seeing everything people do with their lives. I enjoy noticing new things about people that I've never noticed before. 

Learning is so INTRIGUING to me.. it doesn't even matter what its about anymore. I wish I had more time to read like I used to. 

Recently I've been pondering friends and how many I've had and who they have all been. And I realized something. People really are in your life for a reason. I look back at all the times in my life when I have been friends with certain people or even just mere acquaintances and realized that they have either taught me something super important or just helped me when something was hard for me at that point. I'm truly grateful for everyone that has come into my life. Whether for a short time or for a great amount of time. Whether it ended sourly or just.. ended. I'm grateful for the person that I am today, and owe it all to the people that I have surrounded myself with. To my wonderful family. To Isaac... To all of my very best friends, and also all those people that played a little role in my life at some point. Thank You.. 

It seems that life moves on, whether we are ready or not. So here I come. Not really ready, but excited to see what will come my way next.  

Blogs

So recently is seems everyone has a blog and since I love reading them all, I wanted to make a blog, so that I can look back and read everything that I've learned or have thought. I'm still working on all the finesse of this, but its getting there. Definitely a work in progress. 
For now here are some of my favorites:
If it's love. My all time favorite right now :)

 
Perfect two: ALSO LOVE!!! :)