Who Knew

I watch the Daily Bumps vlog every few days. This song is occasionally at the end of their vlog, and I always loved it. I decided to finally go and watch the music video and listen to the whole song. Holy cow. I love it. It made me cry a little bit, which I guess could be from pregnancy hormones. But. It makes me think of all of the things that Isaac and I have gone through to get to where we are, and all of the things that will happen in our future. It's very exciting and makes me emotional to think about. I absolutely love the love story that I have with my sweet husband. He's always been it. The biggest blessing to have ever come into my life. Next week marks six years since the first time he told me he loved me. I remember my heart just skipping a beat (yes as cheesy as that sounds) not knowing if I should breathe or if I was imagining it. I cannot believe it has been that long, and I am so very excited to see what the next six years bring. 

When all is said and done

This has always been one of my favorite songs. It brings out the reflective side of me.

"When all is said and done, as the season slips away when I've taken steps beyond my sight, will I find my strength in greater light. Will my courage grow with every passing day? Will my faith be constant as the setting sun when all is said and done? When all is said and done, and the years have turned to gold, will my life become a legacy of the things that matter most to me? And will I want to be the person I've become when all is said and done?...... When all is said and done, when my eyes can finally see.. will i glory in the sweet release and will mercy fill my soul with peace? Will I kneel in wonder at the Savior's feet, will I hear him say "well done", when he sees who I've become, Will i live with him, when all is said and done?"
Am I doing everything I need to, to become the person that I need and want to become?

The only constant

The only constant in life is change. It seems to always be changing when you least expect it. And sometimes when you need it to, in order to maintain some sort of sanity. 

Lately, life has been a little bit less than enjoyable. Busy, stressful, and full of a lot of things that I was just hating. Once I made one major change, everything else has been a lot more enjoyable. I've decided to change my major, yet again. And for the first time in months, I feel like something is going the way that it should. I have loved the accounting program, up until this semester. Not only is it extremely hard, but I was not enjoying what I was learning. I was learning everything and doing what I had to get by. Not any extra. Just enough. After a lot of discussions with Isaac, we came to the conclusion that I needed a major change in life. I was stuck in the ruts, and felt like I was going no where. 

We explored about a billion different options, trying to find out which one was going to be best for me, best for us. It ultimately came down to the fact that I didn't really see myself as an accountant in the future. I got to a certain point in the program, and just didn't feel it anymore. So, I am going to continue in school. Because heaven knows I didn't just waste the last four years of my life in college to not end up with a degree. I am going to get a bachelors degree of general studies. Essentially I am going to be taking a bunch of different classes. All upper division, so all hard. But, I will get to learn a lot of different things. There are so many different options, and I am honestly excited to have the option to learn about different things. 

I am paying to go to school, I might as well enjoy it while I'm here. I have approximately a year left. 3 semesters, and then I will be done. I also have a whole boatload of elective classes, that have taught me so many things. I don't regret doing accounting, because it taught me a whole lot about everything. But, I'm ready to enjoy my education. I love learning, so much. But there comes a point, when I need to learn something that interests me.

On a different note, I love my husband. He has been so good this semester at helping me out. He is great at making sure we are always fed, and that I stay sane. He truly is my better half, and I'm glad that I don't have to do this life without him. I look forward to the day when I will hopefully be able to stay at home and take care of him and our family. 

While driving in the car tonight, this next song came on the radio. Isaac's first words were, "Remember when you cried to this right before I left for college?" Yeah... Yeah. It just so happens, that change is the most terrifying thing for me, but it always leads to bigger and better things. Here's to the next year.

Looking back

It is mind boggling thinking about every wonderful thing that has happened in the last year. One year ago, today, we got engaged. I remember thinking on that day, that there was no way I could possibly love Isaac any more than I did at that point in time. I have never been more wrong about anything. I have more love for him than I can even explain. Sometimes my heart just feels as if it will burst because it is so full. I often look at him, and just want to cry. Happy tears, that is. He is so good to me. I don't think I could've married anyone who would've been better for me, and with me.

I look forward to all of the adventures that we will have together in all of the years and eternity to come. Being with him, is definitely the best choice I have ever made.

This song was on the slideshow he used to help propose to me. Still makes me cry to this day.

Love

It still is amazing to me how much I love my sweet husband. He is just the greatest. Sometimes, when I hear love type songs on the radio, I just want to start crying, because of how much I love him. I am so extremely grateful for everything he is and does for me. He is the greatest thing in my life, and has blessed me in so many ways.

I do exist!

Oh hey..... I'm here. To post. But can't promise being back for a long amount of time. But. Updating....
Well. Life is different, and grander than before.
I married my best friend in the Idaho Falls temple on May 10, for time and all eternity. And lately I have been thinking that eternity just doesn't even seem long enough. I love that guy with my whole heart and then some. Love notes, built in personal chef, cuddle time all the time, endless kisses, love that is unimaginable, happiness that has never before existed, constant laughter. I never would've thought living with my best friend could be this amazing. It's always an adventure, and I can't imagine anyone who I would rather be with.

For when words fail...

Dreams

I was a little girl, alone in my little world, who dreamed of a little home for me.
I played pretend between the trees, and fed my house guests bark and leaves and laughed in my pretty bed of green. I had a dream, that I could fly from the highest swing, I had a dream.
Long walks in the dark, through woods grown behind the park, I asked God who I'm supposed to be. The stars smiled down at me.

Growing up is great fun. There are so many wonderful things, as well as so many hard things that come along with it. I can't even believe that I am 20 years old. It is crazy how fast time has gone. I love having Isaac along on the ride with me. He makes decisions quite a bit easier, he makes the stress a whole lot less, he makes life better.
Today as I was driving in the car, this song by Kenny Chesney came on and a part of it got me.

Don't blink. Just like that you're six years old and you take a nap and you wake up and you're twenty-five and your high school sweetheart becomes your wife.
I am marrying my high school sweetheart in 5 weeks tomorrow. I can't even believe it. I met Isaac when I was 15 years old. We started dating when I was 16. We had a two year "separation", and now that I am 20, we are getting married. That is crazy, and so wonderful. I love that he is home from his mission, and that everything is working out like I dreamed it would. Two years of waiting and dating was more than worth spending eternity with him :) Crazy to think that all of this time has passed, and that my feelings for him have only grown.
Here's to eternity, in 5 weeks that is ;)

Til My Last Day & Forever after that...

Til my last day, Til my last breath, of everyone that can, I can love you the best. Til my last day, I'll be loving you.
Or, really, until the end of forever.
57 days until we get married! :)

Flashback

This song is one of N'Sync's best songs. It still is actually great. One of my friends posted an old school (90's) music video of N'Sync to facebook. So, I went through and rediscovered some of my favorites. I don't feel as if you can go wrong with some of the old stuff. Still great.

I wonder what kind of music will be out when my future children are growing up. They will probably think of the music I listened to as a kid as awful, just like I do about the music my parents listened to.

Spotify

Spotify is one of the greatest inventions ever. I am always rediscovering old favorites, and somehow still finding so many new goods. This song's title is the best. Also, I love this tune.

"Some things, you just can't put on paper." Isn't that the truth. My kind of perfect has me absolutely in love. He sure is the one and only.

Side note: 83 days until my forever begins with my sweet man.

Engaged.... FOR REALS!

So. We are engaged. Isaac DeMar Wood and I. Best feeling ever. I was completely shocked, because my best friend told me it wasn't happening until next week. I'll post a video here as soon as she sends it to me. But I will tell the story of the engagement, and post a few pictures.

 

We went ring shopping last Friday, the first of February. We weren't planning on buying a ring that day, but I found THE PERFECT one. Which is odd, because it is not at all what I thought I wanted. But, it's gorgeous, and I am excited to wear it for the rest of forever.
Originally the plan was to wait a few months before we got engaged, but, when it's right it's right. Why wait? :)
So I knew an engagement was coming, and thought it would happen a few times, but he kept me guessing. I kept getting little clues here and there from conversations I overheard, or texts I accidentally saw when we were together. AND, they were ALL misleading. He changed his mind a couple times about what he was going to do. I was talking to my best friend Breanna earlier on Friday, and she told me to not be upset if it didn't happen this weekend. She told me that he was planning something for next week, because he wanted it to be perfect. So I expected NOTHING! I didn't want to be bummed.
Now that the back story. Isaac had involved both of our mothers and also Breanna. He called my mom and told her that she needed to get me to Idaho Falls right after class on Friday, so to make up an appointment or something. She called me Thursday night and told me that the appointment we had with the cake lady had been changed to the next day at 1:00, and that I needed to come down right after I got out of class. Isaac supposedly had to work from 5:30 to about 11, in Pocatello. So I drove to Idaho Falls, and waited for my mom. She was running late, (because Breanna and Isaac were running late). When she got into town, we started to head over to the cake ladies house. Or so I thought.
She stopped by Hillcrest (our high school), and said that she needed to drop something off to someone. She went inside, and was gone for like ten minutes. Then she walked back out, and had Breanna with her. Breanna was carrying an envelope and a blindfold. I was shocked. Because the first thing I thought was, "You've got to be kidding me!" Excitement and disbelief all at the same time. For some reason, I believed them all when they said it wouldn't be until next week. Breanna came around to my door, and told me to get out. I got out, and my mom told me that that was what she was dropping off. She then left. I asked Breanna what was going on, and she said that she just wanted to drive up and hang out with me and go shopping or something. I was so confused. But anyways, we walked over to the front doors and she handed me the envelope to read. It was about how we have so many memories there, and such.
We got into her car, and she made me put the blindfold on. We drove around. I could not see a darn thing, and I was just as confused as ever. I asked about a billion questions, and said that I hated everyone because I didn't know what was going on. But, I really love them all. It was just a joking comment of course. We arrived somewhere, and she helped me out of the car. I couldn't take off my blindfold yet, so she helped me walk to where we were going. I climbed through a bunch of snow, and made it to a pavilion. Peterson park holds a lot of memories between Isaac and I. I opened another letter here, and wanted to cry. This next letter talked about how we always came to that park to talk, and how our first kiss happened just down the road :) A flashback of memories came to mind, and I remembered so many happy things.
We went back to the car, and she made me put the blindfold on again. We drove again, and Breanna claimed to be lost. A few minutes later, we arrived at our location, and I was instructed to keep my blindfold on. Breanna helped me out of the car, and helped me trudge up over a mountain of snow. It seemed like I was walking through snow for forever. I just wanted to get to that next envelope. She instructed me to step up, and I put my hands in front of me to help guide me. I felt a grated playground like material. I had no idea where we could possibly be. I still couldn't take off my blindfold, and I touched something with my left hand that I shouldn't have. She quickly moved my hand away so that I couldn't figure out what it was.

 I was then able to take off the blindfold at the same time music started playing on Isaac's laptop that was sitting in front of me. He had made a slideshow of pictures and music. Where we first met, and a few other memories in between. I cried. A lot. Also, next to the laptop was sitting my favorite flowers, white lilies (which his mother had gone through a lot of trouble to get). At the end of the slideshow, there was a slide that said something about having one question for me. I stared at the screen, expecting it to change. Still thinking that Isaac had had to work that night in Pocatello. And he comes out from the side, pulls me up and takes me down from the playground set. He gets down on one knee, and yeah, I'm really crying. He then asks me to marry him, and I just nod my head. I couldn't even say yes. I was so happy. He put my gorgeous ring on, and then proceeded to hug and kiss me.

I love him. I knew a proposal was coming, and he still managed to propose without me having figured anything out. It was a complete surprise, which was everything that I wanted. He had my best friend involved. He had her take pictures, and video record the entire thing. Our families knew. Everything was perfect. He made me cry, which was his goal. Because then he knew that he had done a good job. I am so excited to marry my absolute best friend and future eternal companion on May 10, 2013 in the Idaho Falls Temple. <3

Yours Forever

This song makes me cry. No big deal or anything.

Ours

"Life makes love look hard.... You never know what people have up their sleeves. Ghosts from your past gonna jump out at me. Lurking in the shadows with their lip glossed smiles. But I don't care. Cuz right now you're mine. And you'll say, Don't you worry your pretty little mind. People throw rocks at things that shine, and life makes love look hard. The stakes are high, the waters rough. But this love is OURS!"
So despite the fact that I am not the fondest of TSwift. I absolutely love this song. And I am absolutely in love with a certain someone. Everyday is a new day, and yet the only thing that changes is how much my feelings for him grow each and every day.

I am so incredibly blessed. In all areas of my life. I belong to the most amazing church ever. I am grateful for a Father in Heaven who loves me unconditionally. I have the most amazing boyfriend ever. Who does everything for me, and loves me more than I deserve. My family is the best thing that has ever been. My parents support me in everything I do, and I love the relationship I have with them. My sister is absolutely incredible. She is such a great example. I love them all. My roommates are incredible! I don't see a whole lot of them lately, but we all are there for each other when we need to be. I have the best friends I could ever ask for. I'm grateful for all of the amazing people in my life who are always there for me. I am grateful for the examples that I have been blessed to be able to have help me along this path of life. I am happy.

Today

Here I sit, in the institute building. Doing homework. Listening to this great song that I just discovered. Just loving life! :) Also, could the semester get better? I think not. Unless I could possibly have less homework. Impossible!

:)

I love this song. Also, I am so extremely blessed. With a boy who loves me enough to go completely out of his way to help me out. I have been struggling with my 8 am class this week. I have been a few minutes late both times this week, because I can never find a parking spot. Which makes it so I end up sitting in the very back. Which makes it so I can't focus. So I've been trying to leave the house at 7:15. Which is nearly impossible when I wake up at 7:10 usually. (Yeah, I have a rough time waking up early). So last night, Isaac told me that he would come and pick me up this morning, so that I wouldn't have to worry about parking. He didn't have class until 10 today. So he woke up, texted me to make sure I was up, and then picked me up around 7:30 so that I could get a good seat in class. And guess what, I learned a lot today, and all of the things that didn't make sense earlier in the week, all became clear today. I love you, Isaac. Thank you for wanting me to succeed, and doing whatever you can to help me do so. So for now, I am going to figure out a way to make sure I am out of the house by 7:15, so that I can get a parking spot. Even if that means going to bed at 9pm. Wish me luck :)

OH HI

Life is great.

"You are the light in the dark"

Also, this song is just great.

Also, this boy is home.

I stole this from his sister Karlee. But I also look like a weirdo. Not quite sure what I was doing..

One month

One month left today. ONE! Can't even believe it. At this point, it seems like forever, and yet at the same time it seems like it's tomorrow. I am filled with about a billion emotions. Scared. Excited. Amazed. Awestruck. Nervous. I just don't even know. It feels kindof like your first day of school. Where you are so excited you want to yell for joy, yet so nervous you feel as if you could puke. Yeah, that about sums it up.

I've had about a billion people talk to me about it, probably because I talk to a billion people about it, and the reactions are usually one or the other. "Oh I'm so excited for you." or. "What happens if he comes home and doesn't like you, or if it doesn't work out?" My response to the latter is always along the same lines. We'll take it from there if that happens. I know there is a possibility that will happen. But I just hope that it won't.

After doing something for so long, aka 'waiting' for a missionary, you'd think people would give it a rest and just be happy for you. Nope. So not the case. But that's fine. I'll show them that I can be happy with whatever happens to me. I've already proved that I can wait 23 months for him, what's another one? I love that missionary with all my heart.

"I won't give up on us."

Sweetheart

"I belong with you and you belong with me, you're my sweetheart." 

I love this cover. The original is almost weird, but they do a fantastic job with it. 

M&L Day